The inspiration for this blog came yesterday when I was talking to a friend about songwriting and really discussing what music means for me. It really helped me to think about why I really want to be a songwriter and singer.
After our discussion I strongly felt to talk a bit more about my desire for music and how God has given it to me as a treasure and tool to express myself to the people around me. For as long as I can remember growing up music has always been apart of my family and what we all loved and did. Growing up in Africa my whole family was musically involved at Church and I found that even though my family didn’t get along most of the time, music was always the thing that could always bring us together.
At the church my eldest sister was the leader of the choir and every Sunday we would sing, and even though I was only around 7 and 8, I remember doing it and it being my favourite part of church.
As I got older I started to find it hard to pursue my dreams because I started to doubt God for the outcomes. Whenever people asked me what I wanted to do when I grew up and I said singing, they would sometimes say that singing or music wasn’t a job unless you became famous and made money, so I needed to find something else to do with my life.
For a while there I put down music. Until my best friend, who I had lived with for about nine months, and I started talking and we realised we both had the same passions but because we had gotten the same responses from people, we had slowly started to let our dreams die and not use the gifts God had given us.
The funny thing was that we both realised this months after I moved out of her house. 🙂
I have also realised after talking to my songwriting friend that the reason why I struggle with songwriting is because I am afraid to feel and come to the place of brokenness in my songwriting. He said that if you write a song and it doesn’t make you tear up, happy or if you just don’t feel any emotions towards it then it probably isn’t a song that is from your heart
I learnt that I would probably find it easier to write songs, if I just played an instrument and let the words flow out because I noticed when we talking about songwriting and my friend was playing his guitar, words were just flowing out of my mouth without me thinking about it.
So there guys is my story and why music and songwriting is so important to me.
If I can say anything to you guys is that if you have friends or family members who have passions and desires that God has placed in their lives, never discourage them by telling them about all the obstacles in their way or how it isn’t a job. Instead pray for them.
Some scriptures that speak of God’s heart and promises in time of doubts are:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)
Look at the birds of the air: They do not sow or reap or gather into barns–and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? (Matthew 6:26)
Last week I had a tough week and I had to make some decisions about whether holding onto and treasuring my birthright in the house of God was more important or gaining this world and losing my soul. In the process I remember very strongly when I was praying God saying I have plans for your life. Now I don’t know whether he was just talking about music but whether it was or not, I am very excited and can’t wait to see his plans unfold in my life.
It reminds me of a Tobymac song Lose My Soul
That’s everything for today, but I would love it if guys would share some of your stories about what inspires you about music and what your dreams are.